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 Sunday, January 26, 2003"Thank God for the radio The melody is so nice... That's why I like Alan Jackson so much. His voice is great, and the country melody is always nice. I am struggling to post new things here... I don't know what it is.... It's just a feeling that I can't express what I am feeling as well as I can in Portuguese, for obvious reasons, it's not because my English is bad - I have B in College English and an A in Poetry - but for some reason I am enjoying a lot more updating my portuguese blog. Also I found some fantastic people who write their blogs in portuguese, and I mean, REAL stuff, written by journalists and all in portuguese, and that affects me. Makes me more passionate to write in my own language. I will keep coming back and I will always write the blogs of friends, but I like to feel I belong to something, and I am not getting that feeling here - I wonder if I will ever feel I belong to anything anytime in the future. For those of you wondering, no I don't think I will live in UK forever. First because forever is waaaaay too far and waaay too much to say. I will live here till my blues are too hard to take and my heart calls for home. I don't intend to be false and say I love it here, because I don't. But again, I thought I would never miss Canada, and now I misss it dearly. It's not easy for me to be here and not really feel like I have something here. Ok, so my husband and his family are here, but apart from that, what do I have here? Absolutely nothing. Life has started all over again, and no, it's not easy starting looking for jobs from the scratch, when everyone has no consideration for your previous jobs, simply because they were not on this country. I am no woman to stay at home, never wanted, never will. I have higher aims in life than leaving the toilet sparkling clean. I don't know why I am saying all this since this is no concern to any of you... Sorry for the flood of words. On the road again, just can't wait to get on the road again I long for a place I can call "My Home" - don't bullsh*t me with the thing that home is where your love is. What a lie. Home is much more than that. I bid farewell now, be safe. And I hope you all find your "home".
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 Sunday, January 19, 2003I hope all the this moving URL's is ok, and that everyone is able to find this new address... It's been a nightmare moving all the stuff, almost as bad as moving houses... I found out I have way too many pages and they all start to mix up and I get all confused and lost. If you find out a broken link or images that won't load, please let me know, so I can try and fix it... It's been an ok week. I have been tired since the beginning, feels like I sleep but can't rest. I was wathing tv the other day, I think it was channel 4, and they had this program about all the diets and gyms, etc. I had a good laugh with that. I hate gyms. Theres that bunch of show off that don't do anything else than being a gym rat, and for me going to the gym to make exercises is just a waste of time. I like swimming classes, but that's about it. They were also talking about all those videos with celebrities for you to get in shape. Another big waste of money in my humble opinion. First, all those celebrities didn't get those bodies only working out. They had time and money to spend on nutritionist, personal trainers, plastic surgeries, and whatmore. Another program on TV that I thought it was pretty horrible is called "without prejudice", where 5 ordinary people judge other 5 and decide who will win £50k based on their backgrounds, family, opinions, etc. The name of the program should be "A lot of Prejudice" instead of "without prejudice". What a bunch of people with lots of stereotypes on their minds! Oh City of God - brazilian movie - is showing here! I might go watch it next weekend! It's one of the best best box offices in UK! Great to see that Brazilian movies are getting better and better. I just hope they did not dubbed it!! I have to go now, and help Vince with the cleaning.... Have fun!
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Saturday, January 18, 2003Sorry about my lack of posts, but thismorning I tried to post and blogger didnt work, so I didn't bother doing it again... Ok its done, I moved! New address! Hope you all don't mind... i've got re-directs on lycos and blueyonder so it should be fine for now, till everyone is used to the new address. Haven't done much today, and the upload to the new server is taking forever. We went grocers shopping and bought some nice grapes... yum yum. I am going to cook dinner in a bit so I will post more tomorrow, to coment on some interesting stuff I've seen this week. Hugs,
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Sunday, January 12, 2003Well, don't say anything, but I just ate his bowl of Whiskers!! Ha ha ha ha haaaaaa haaaaaaaa!  Isn't it cuttttte?? hahaha!!
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I found peace when after taking a course in Brazil, called Leader Training, I learned that suffering like that was not normal, and many of the things we worry about in the future turn out to be just a torture for our present. I 've learned (not painless) that we cannot foresee the future so therefore it's pointless suffering for it. There are so many people that I see, that are just hurting themselves thinking about what the future will bring, if it will be good or bad, what they should do about it. The answer is simple. Live your life today, as a person that is worth a bright future and hope for it. Don't start suffering now for something you don't know if it will be real or not. I have a huge fear that my parents will someday go... I used to cry and cry antecipating that moment. What a waste of time. What I do now? I thank God everyday that they are healthy and with us, and I enjoy them, and love them. I refuse to suffer for something that hasn't happened and won't happen in a looooong while. I think back and find myself being stupid...and I am not stupid. Took me a while figure that out, but when I did - at the course - I felt like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. From then on it was a constant battle to remember that I sould not try and figure out the future. After all, I am not here to suffer, I am here to be happy. Being happy is living each day at a time.. not all days at the same time. Love,
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Tuesday, January 07, 2003
I loved it! Gem I got your email, and I was just going to reply!! Thanks a lot! I hope the sites will give me some "inspiration" .. hehe!! La La La... for some weird reason I feel sortof happy today!! Like happy as in silly happy.. lol! Nothing much going on here, apart from the diet I just started... Have to lose a couple of kilos or nothing will fit me anymore!! HAHA! Ok, I will probably write only on the weekend now, unless something extraordinary happens.. like me winning the lottery os something like that!! As if... hehehe... Have a great wednesday all!!
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Sunday, January 05, 2003Well, at least I've changed bits and pieces on the layout and my Brazilian Blog is all new. took me houuurs. Couldn't decide which backgrounds to use, and when I picked them, they didn't seem to match at all. Grrr... It's done now, good or bad, that's how its gonna look like. I haven't been doing much this weekend. It's been snowing here for the last couple of days.. not that absurd amount of snow, just a bit that melts and at night turns into that lovely ice that makes you break your leg if you are not careful. Yesterday we went to buy some grocers and we stopped by homebase. Many things I wanted to buy but resisted. Then we went to Tesco and for some reason I thought it was way way way too crowded in there. Ohhh I've watched two movies that I really wanted to!! Billy Elliot and My Big Fat Greek Wedding. Billy Elliot is beautiful, I knew I was going to love it. If you haven't seen it, I reccomend! My Big Fat Greek Wedding is a very funny comedy. In many ways reminds me of my own family, because of the food and the amount of people!! It made me miss my family and all the noise and all the kids and all the people.... and the laughter.... Another great one to watch! (Remember, you are not a part of the family, the family is a part of you!) Tomorrow everything starts again... It feels like resetting the time, erasing everything and starting all over again, but tired already.. longing for Christmas. But yey, I am going to travel in a couple of months so I look forward to that! I so much want to go to Brazil because I still haven't seen my wedding album. My mom said it's beautiful, but I told her not to send (it's pretty heavy and it was going to cost too much) so I am dead curious about it. Hope you are all fine and ready for a new beginning! Tons of love and luck ya'll.
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Wednesday, January 01, 2003To all of you friends who visit me here on an almost daily basis, my big THANKS. Blogging is fun when you know other people can actually share your experiences. Thanks for all kind words, I wish you all the best for 2003. BE HAPPY, because when you are happy and positive, only good things can happen to you. We had a very quiet New Year's Eve... We decided to stay at home, only the two of us. It was very special and we had a great view of the fireworks they had around here. I tried to call my parents but the phone for the ranch they are today seems to belong to someone else. I will try again later at my parent's house. Also, reading all the other blogs from expats (brazilians in particular) made me a bit homesick, cos some of them actually were in Brazil for New Year's/Xmas. Well, I can't complain too much, cos I will be going to Brazil soon, and maybe we will spend 2003 xmas there... Gem I would love to do some craft work, but I am terrible with that... lol... I can't even cut papers straight.... My craft project for ths year is to make a "Love Log Book" with all stuff Vince and I have since we started being together as a couple. I hope that goes well. I went to WH Smith to see prices for the acid free pages and all the other stuff and I realised it's going to cost more than I expected, so I will take my time and do it slowly. I was doing a 2002 review in my mind, and my conclusion is that 2002 was a great year. An year of achievement, victories, homesickness, love, sadness and hope... lots of hope. Hoping that everything will be even better this year, that we can all look forward to, without fear and without doubts. 2003 will bring with it all the best wishes I can have. (Brazilian New Year's Tradition) Many hugs!
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