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 Monday, July 28, 2003perfect by nature icons of self indulgence just what we all need more lies about a world that never was and never will be have you no shame don't you see me you know you've got everybody fooled look here she comes now bow down and stare in wonder oh how we love you no flaws when you're pretending but now i know she never was and never will be you don't know how you've betrayed me and somehow you've got everybody fooled without the mask where will you hide can't find yourself lost in your lie i know the truth now i know who you are and i don't love you anymore it never was and never will be you're not real and you can't save me somehow now you're everybody's fool Evanescence
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 Saturday, July 26, 2003Ok, I admit, I have not updated this blog in ages.... I have been updating the Portuguese one much more, just because I found out writing in Portuguese is like therapy for me. It's like been back to Brazil, back home. Also, I found some very interesting people which are also bloggers and expats. It's nice to read about experiences so like mine, and see that what I miss, is generally missed by everyone else... I have put this one into second plan, as I don't have as much free time as I used to. Work has been hectic, and when I get home I just do not want to sit in front of the computer. I think we all know this feeling. Funny how life changes. There was a time in my life I thought I was going to have such and such. And now, I don't have such and such, but I have this and those instead. Mostly for the better I suppose. I stopped living wth the "what if's" of life. I just grab whatever comes my way as a blessing. Yeah, I still have wishes. But I don't have a concrete dream anymore. Some 10 years ago, I had many dreams, some that I am proud to have achieved, some I am proud to have admitted defeat. I am not proud of not having a dream now. It's hard to live without dreams, you know? I mean, I have some stuff I'd like to do and see, but nothing that strikes me like a thunder and makes my heart race... I am fullfilled, I am happy, but being as human as anyone else, I can't ever be completely satisfied. And that bothers me. Feels like my life is always missing something, an objectve, a target, a dream to make come true... In the end, it's all because of who I am, and that's mea culpa.
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Tuesday, July 08, 20031. Strawberries or blueberries? Strawberries and cream... 2. "Legally Blonde 2" or "Terminator 3"? Haven't seen any of those. 3. Hamburgers or hot dogs? Hmmm, both? 4. Boating or hiking? None? 5. Suntan lotion or sunblock? Sunblock, or I turn Shrimp red. 6. "Big Brother" or "The Amazing Race"? None :P 7. Beach Boys or Jimmy Buffett? Jimmy who? Is he related to Phoebe? 8. Grow your own produce or buy from supermarket/greengrocer/farm stand? Supermarket most likely. 9. Drive with car windows/top down, or with air-conditioning on? Air-con if possible, top down if the car is a convertible! 10. Go away for vacation, or stay at home? Go very far away!
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Sunday, July 06, 2003I am back from blogger's darkness, as I figured a way to cheat and use ftp to another server... So now I am here, and hm, I will think of womthing to post soon!!!!
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